Without a doubt, perfect chocolate is different for everyone. We all have different tastes and likes, so what pleases me may not please my friends. What is it that makes up the perfect chocolate? Quality ingredients. What makes the perfect man is the same. Okay so there is no perfect man, we all know that by now, and if you did not I am sorry to burst your bubble.
I have been seeing a man for several weeks, he is a gentleman, kind and affectionate, the list of qualities goes on and on, and I could go on and on but I do not want you to be jealous. HAHA! A week ago, he tells me he absolutely adores me but needs to end things because he is bad for me and the timing just is not right. Whoa! Wait! What?
I listened to his reasons and at the end of the conversation, we agreed to take things one day at a time and give him space to think. By the third day, I told him that his plan was all wrong and he needed to come up with a new plan that included me. After all, when you find great chocolate you eat it up right. I was not about to walk away from a good thing!
My last relationship was the exact opposite, I spent five years with him cheating on me, three of those years, and he never admitted publicly that he was in a relationship with me, he never took me on dates, and I cannot remember the last compliment he gave me. I felt neglected, abused, controlled and not worthy of his time, attention or affection.
Friday evening, he asked me if I could get a babysitter and join him and his friends camping, the plans just fell into place and I was able to spend time getting to know him even better and I must say I am so blessed. As I sat next to ‘my man’ on the picnic table while he shelled pistachios for me to eat. He got up and got me a soda cleaned it off and opened it for me. I turned to him and asked if he was just trying to impress me and if this special treatment would wear off in a few months, and his answer was “what you see is what you get, you deserve to be treated this way and it is not going to stop”.
We all know that you cannot look your best when you are camping. The moment I knew, he had ‘quality ingredients’ was when I emerged from my tent and he was standing there looking at me with the biggest smile on his face. My first thought was how he was about to start laughing at how horrific I look in the morning with my hair curled up all over and completely gone wild. I took one look at him and said ’okay you can run away now’ He laughed and said ’you look amazing’.
I did not look anything near amazing, but in his eyes, I did. That is what it all comes down to. The beauty of a person is not just found in that person, it exists in the eyes of the world. God created each one of us from the same basic ingredients, but how we come together to be the person we are is a work in progress. The beauty that is in us is there no matter what, but the people we interact with are what bring it out of us.
1 Peter 3:3-4 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.
God tells us that beauty should not be worn on the outside, instead what makes us beautiful should come from within, it is our ingredients, stirred together to make us who we are. I can look back and see that there was no beauty coming from my last relationship, the ingredients mixed together made anything but perfect chocolate. Beauty comes from our inner ingredients that are brought to the surface by getting jut the right mix, two people who compliment each other and blend together create ‘perfect chocolate’.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Ingredients
What defines us are our ingredients, what we are made of makes us who we are. A few months ago a dear friend of mine told me she was done being friends with me with no reason or explanation, she was just done. I tried so hard to figure it out but could not draw any conclusions as to why, other then she was struggling and could not deal with things.
Yesterday she came to me and asked to talk; she wanted the opportunity to tell me what had happened. I listened to her and soon found that what I had thought was true, she just checked out because it was easier for her to handle things that way. She knew me well enough that I would not judge her and that I would forgive her. She knew what I was made of, what my ingredients were.
At the end of the conversation, she told me “Thanks for understanding. That is your gift from God and you do it well.” It really meant a lot to hear her say that. I try to be a reasonable person and understand people. What drives them to do things? Why do bad things happen? After all God calls us to be forgiving and understanding. Sometimes it is hard to have that ability, more often then not I end up being hurt and let down. However, yesterday God gave me back a good friendship, my reward for being patient.
It was funny because another friend opened up yesterday too. She told me how in church she had been thinking about how my ex boyfriend had hurt me with the things he had done. In addition, how it had affected so many of my relationships with people in the church. She was thankful to be my friend and see me reap the rewards God is giving me. She could not help but think about the others who have judged me and turned their backs on me and are missing out on the blessings because they chose to believe the lies and gossip about me.
Please do not get me wrong, I am not patting myself on the back. I am fully aware I am a sinner. Sometimes it takes going through a trial to find out what our ingredients are. God is funny like that, he does not make us and say ‘here you go, this is your recipe. This is who you are and what you are made of so you know how to deal with life’. Instead, He gave us His word, repeatedly in the scriptures He tells us to be like him; 2 Corinthians 3:18; Galatians 4:19; Romans 8:29; Ephesians 4:13 Romans 12:2. Ephesians 4: 23-24 “to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness“.
I would like to think that two of my ingredients are grace and faith; they are what I strive for in my walk every day. I love the following definitions from Webster’s Dictionary and the bible:
Webster’s definition of Grace noun 1. A state of sanctification by God. 2. Elegance and beauty of movement or expression. 3. A sense of propriety and consideration for others. 4. A disposition to kindness and compassion; benign good will
The Bible’s definition of Grace (1.) Of form or person (Prov. 1:9; 3:22; Ps. 45:2). (2.) Favor, kindness, friendship (Gen. 6:8; 18:3; 19:19; 2 Tim. 1:9). (3.) God's forgiving mercy (Rom. 11:6; Eph. 2:5).
Webster’s definition of Faith noun 1. A strong belief in a supernatural power or powers that control human destiny. 2. Complete confidence in a person or plan etc. 3. Institution to express belief in a divine power. 4. Loyalty or allegiance to a cause or a person.
The Bible’s definition of Faith is in general the persuasion of the mind of the truth. (Phil. 1:27; 2 Thess. 2:13). Its primary idea is trust. A thing is true, and therefore worthy of trust. Faith is the result of teaching (Rom. 10:14-17). Knowledge is an essential element in all faith, and is sometimes spoken of as an equivalent to faith (John 10:38; 1 John 2:3).
It is hard for us to suffer; we often ask ourselves why we have to go through these trials and why we are not good enough. God wants to give us our ingredients; He wants to show us what we are made of.
Yesterday she came to me and asked to talk; she wanted the opportunity to tell me what had happened. I listened to her and soon found that what I had thought was true, she just checked out because it was easier for her to handle things that way. She knew me well enough that I would not judge her and that I would forgive her. She knew what I was made of, what my ingredients were.
At the end of the conversation, she told me “Thanks for understanding. That is your gift from God and you do it well.” It really meant a lot to hear her say that. I try to be a reasonable person and understand people. What drives them to do things? Why do bad things happen? After all God calls us to be forgiving and understanding. Sometimes it is hard to have that ability, more often then not I end up being hurt and let down. However, yesterday God gave me back a good friendship, my reward for being patient.
It was funny because another friend opened up yesterday too. She told me how in church she had been thinking about how my ex boyfriend had hurt me with the things he had done. In addition, how it had affected so many of my relationships with people in the church. She was thankful to be my friend and see me reap the rewards God is giving me. She could not help but think about the others who have judged me and turned their backs on me and are missing out on the blessings because they chose to believe the lies and gossip about me.
Please do not get me wrong, I am not patting myself on the back. I am fully aware I am a sinner. Sometimes it takes going through a trial to find out what our ingredients are. God is funny like that, he does not make us and say ‘here you go, this is your recipe. This is who you are and what you are made of so you know how to deal with life’. Instead, He gave us His word, repeatedly in the scriptures He tells us to be like him; 2 Corinthians 3:18; Galatians 4:19; Romans 8:29; Ephesians 4:13 Romans 12:2. Ephesians 4: 23-24 “to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness“.
I would like to think that two of my ingredients are grace and faith; they are what I strive for in my walk every day. I love the following definitions from Webster’s Dictionary and the bible:
Webster’s definition of Grace noun 1. A state of sanctification by God. 2. Elegance and beauty of movement or expression. 3. A sense of propriety and consideration for others. 4. A disposition to kindness and compassion; benign good will
The Bible’s definition of Grace (1.) Of form or person (Prov. 1:9; 3:22; Ps. 45:2). (2.) Favor, kindness, friendship (Gen. 6:8; 18:3; 19:19; 2 Tim. 1:9). (3.) God's forgiving mercy (Rom. 11:6; Eph. 2:5).
Webster’s definition of Faith noun 1. A strong belief in a supernatural power or powers that control human destiny. 2. Complete confidence in a person or plan etc. 3. Institution to express belief in a divine power. 4. Loyalty or allegiance to a cause or a person.
The Bible’s definition of Faith is in general the persuasion of the mind of the truth. (Phil. 1:27; 2 Thess. 2:13). Its primary idea is trust. A thing is true, and therefore worthy of trust. Faith is the result of teaching (Rom. 10:14-17). Knowledge is an essential element in all faith, and is sometimes spoken of as an equivalent to faith (John 10:38; 1 John 2:3).
It is hard for us to suffer; we often ask ourselves why we have to go through these trials and why we are not good enough. God wants to give us our ingredients; He wants to show us what we are made of.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Different Kinds of Chocolate
Just like men, there are so many different kinds of chocolate to choose from. They range from the generic; waxy and granular, all the way to the designer variety; rich and smooth and all the ones in between. I grew up in California and my favorites were See's, Ghiradelli and Godiva. I absolutely love truffles and the darker the better, it is richer and the flavor is beyond description.
Chocolate is so much like men!
White chocolate...well we already know this is a fake, phony, fraud, impostor...
I have dated too many of these. They are the smooth talker; tell you what you want to hear. This guy convinces you that he is something that he is not. He talks the talk but cannot walk the walk if you know what I mean.
Milk chocolate...smooth and a little waxy. It leaves a film in your mouth that you cannot get rid of. Yeah...enough said. It is the dime store chocolate, or the dime a dozen men. he is predictable and straight forward, what you see is what you get, but do you really want it? In the end, are you really going to be satisfied?
Dark chocolate...creamy, rich, REAL.
This man is mature, stable and honest. The percentage sign is a strong indicator of what you get on this one. I have found that most run of the mill chocolates (and men) are not confident enough to display that they are real quality. A real man has no problem admitting what he is made of.
I just recently went from white chocolate to dark chocolate. What a difference it made! My 'white' chocolate talked a good game, convinced me he loved God and me and was ready to start a life working in ministry together. I kept waiting for that to happen, for five long years, and what it boiled down to was that he cheated on me the whole time and kept making excuses for his actions and blaming me.
My 'dark' chocolate is nothing like him. In fact he is the exact opposite. He is older, more mature, committed to his life and everything in it. he is stable and when he says something he means it. He is good, honest and pure. This is the chocolate you can trust to the very last bite.
Philippians 1:9-10"And this is my prayer:that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may also be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ"
God wants us to make choices; He gave us willpower and the ability to think for ourselves. We have options so that we can look at each individual and situation and decide what is best for us ACCORDING TO HIS WILL FOR US.
May your chocolate be rich and pure! Enjoy!
Chocolate is so much like men!
White chocolate...well we already know this is a fake, phony, fraud, impostor...
I have dated too many of these. They are the smooth talker; tell you what you want to hear. This guy convinces you that he is something that he is not. He talks the talk but cannot walk the walk if you know what I mean.
Milk chocolate...smooth and a little waxy. It leaves a film in your mouth that you cannot get rid of. Yeah...enough said. It is the dime store chocolate, or the dime a dozen men. he is predictable and straight forward, what you see is what you get, but do you really want it? In the end, are you really going to be satisfied?
Dark chocolate...creamy, rich, REAL.
This man is mature, stable and honest. The percentage sign is a strong indicator of what you get on this one. I have found that most run of the mill chocolates (and men) are not confident enough to display that they are real quality. A real man has no problem admitting what he is made of.
I just recently went from white chocolate to dark chocolate. What a difference it made! My 'white' chocolate talked a good game, convinced me he loved God and me and was ready to start a life working in ministry together. I kept waiting for that to happen, for five long years, and what it boiled down to was that he cheated on me the whole time and kept making excuses for his actions and blaming me.
My 'dark' chocolate is nothing like him. In fact he is the exact opposite. He is older, more mature, committed to his life and everything in it. he is stable and when he says something he means it. He is good, honest and pure. This is the chocolate you can trust to the very last bite.
Philippians 1:9-10"And this is my prayer:that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may also be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ"
God wants us to make choices; He gave us willpower and the ability to think for ourselves. We have options so that we can look at each individual and situation and decide what is best for us ACCORDING TO HIS WILL FOR US.
May your chocolate be rich and pure! Enjoy!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Razzles
You know when you go to the ice cream shop and you add a topping but the candy is not the real stuff. I hate that. The gummies are not ‘the’ gummies and the M&M’s are razzles. Yuck! Why do the candy companies fake it and make us think they are something other then what they really are?
It is not so different with people. You can look at someone on the surface and listen to the things they say and get the impression that they are a good, Godly person, sincere in their walk with Christ. However, as time goes by, you learn that they are not what they appear.
I hate dishonesty, and I firmly believe there is a difference between lying and sinning, even though lying is a sin itself. I have no problem admitting that I am a sinner, I sin every single day and I do not try to hide it or pretend that I do not. As a Christian, I know that people look at my walk and me closely and scrutinize every move I make. I do not want to tell people my walk is right on when in all honesty that could not be further from the truth. I love the song by Matthew West, “ The Motions”, I see so many people doing that every day and it breaks my heart. I pray that when people see me that they see me as honest and as a sinner.
I think that when Christians take on the responsibility of being leaders among their piers, they need to be accountable for what they do and say. It is not enough to say ‘my walk is straight’ ‘God is moving in my life’ or ‘I am following God’s will to serve’. Your actions must follow and if you are doing things behind closed doors and telling the church your life is upright, you are a hypocrite and you not only ruin your testimony but you affect the church as well, most importantly you cause non-believers to stumble and draw further away from God.
It is better say, ‘I’m a razzle. I strive to be an M&M one day, but for now, this is who I am, take me or leave me.’ More often then not, people are going to take you because you did not try to pretend to be something other then yourself, sins and all. You will earn a lot more respect and God will use what you see as failures to His advantage.
There were so my verses that I thought about including, but when I came across this one, it really hit home. Joel 2:12 “Even now,” declares the Lord, “return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning.” It does not matter to God what we look like or act like, even now, in our present existence, He calls for us, believers who know the gospel, to RETURN to Him and turn away from the lies and sin of the world. We can never find happiness on our own, it is only through God. Only God.
Even now, I am a sinner, my walk is not perfect and it never will be, but God can use me anyway.
It is not so different with people. You can look at someone on the surface and listen to the things they say and get the impression that they are a good, Godly person, sincere in their walk with Christ. However, as time goes by, you learn that they are not what they appear.
I hate dishonesty, and I firmly believe there is a difference between lying and sinning, even though lying is a sin itself. I have no problem admitting that I am a sinner, I sin every single day and I do not try to hide it or pretend that I do not. As a Christian, I know that people look at my walk and me closely and scrutinize every move I make. I do not want to tell people my walk is right on when in all honesty that could not be further from the truth. I love the song by Matthew West, “ The Motions”, I see so many people doing that every day and it breaks my heart. I pray that when people see me that they see me as honest and as a sinner.
I think that when Christians take on the responsibility of being leaders among their piers, they need to be accountable for what they do and say. It is not enough to say ‘my walk is straight’ ‘God is moving in my life’ or ‘I am following God’s will to serve’. Your actions must follow and if you are doing things behind closed doors and telling the church your life is upright, you are a hypocrite and you not only ruin your testimony but you affect the church as well, most importantly you cause non-believers to stumble and draw further away from God.
It is better say, ‘I’m a razzle. I strive to be an M&M one day, but for now, this is who I am, take me or leave me.’ More often then not, people are going to take you because you did not try to pretend to be something other then yourself, sins and all. You will earn a lot more respect and God will use what you see as failures to His advantage.
There were so my verses that I thought about including, but when I came across this one, it really hit home. Joel 2:12 “Even now,” declares the Lord, “return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning.” It does not matter to God what we look like or act like, even now, in our present existence, He calls for us, believers who know the gospel, to RETURN to Him and turn away from the lies and sin of the world. We can never find happiness on our own, it is only through God. Only God.
Even now, I am a sinner, my walk is not perfect and it never will be, but God can use me anyway.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
New Tastes
Have you ever settled for something just because you were used to having it around? It is too scary to let go of it, yet you know that it is not really, what you want and definitely not, what you need. What would happen if you took a leap of faith and tried something new?
I did and I loved it! Last night I went on my first real date in over 8 years! He called me, came and picked me up; we ate dinner and had an amazing time together! If I would have never let go of the hope I had been clinging to of the sweets that had turned bitter so many years ago, I would have never been able to taste the bliss I did last night. Trying something new can be intimidating, but oh so rewarding!
Face it ladies, you can get stuck in the rut of plain chocolate and get so used to it that you don’t realize there is more being offered. I went five years without being complimented, but also literally being criticized and controlled. Even during the times when my ex and I split up and I tried to do things to improve my self-esteem, he always came back and managed to put me down. However, the new variety I stumbled upon, well that is a whole other story.
God wants us to be happy, he did not put us here to be beaten, lied to, abused, cheated on or anything else. If you are in that situation, you need to get help or get out. God wants us to be loved, cared for and cherished, just as HE loves us. God would never treat us the way that some men do, and he would never want us to settle for less then we deserve.
God loves us with His entire being and calls us to love as HE does, John 13:34 “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.” I don’t see anywhere that it says to love less, to put ourselves first or let someone else make you feel like you are not worthy of AGAPE love. I had held out hope that the man I loved for five years would change and love me the way that I loved him, that way the God calls us to love. Romans 5:2 “And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us“.
We do not have to settle for what we know; we can and should expect so much more for ourselves. Taste life, it is so much sweeter then you ever thought it could be!
I did and I loved it! Last night I went on my first real date in over 8 years! He called me, came and picked me up; we ate dinner and had an amazing time together! If I would have never let go of the hope I had been clinging to of the sweets that had turned bitter so many years ago, I would have never been able to taste the bliss I did last night. Trying something new can be intimidating, but oh so rewarding!
Face it ladies, you can get stuck in the rut of plain chocolate and get so used to it that you don’t realize there is more being offered. I went five years without being complimented, but also literally being criticized and controlled. Even during the times when my ex and I split up and I tried to do things to improve my self-esteem, he always came back and managed to put me down. However, the new variety I stumbled upon, well that is a whole other story.
God wants us to be happy, he did not put us here to be beaten, lied to, abused, cheated on or anything else. If you are in that situation, you need to get help or get out. God wants us to be loved, cared for and cherished, just as HE loves us. God would never treat us the way that some men do, and he would never want us to settle for less then we deserve.
God loves us with His entire being and calls us to love as HE does, John 13:34 “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.” I don’t see anywhere that it says to love less, to put ourselves first or let someone else make you feel like you are not worthy of AGAPE love. I had held out hope that the man I loved for five years would change and love me the way that I loved him, that way the God calls us to love. Romans 5:2 “And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us“.
We do not have to settle for what we know; we can and should expect so much more for ourselves. Taste life, it is so much sweeter then you ever thought it could be!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Trying New Chocolate….
There comes a point in life where you have to venture out a try new chocolate. You are going to find so many different kinds that tempt your palate, but picking the right one can be tricky.
I have recently found myself single again after being in a long-term relationship. While I am not out looking to meet anyone, nor am I ready to get back into a relationship again, it certainly does not hurt to window shop the chocolate to see what is new. This is what I have discovered and why I am still shopping.
My first option is the young, newly divorced, father of one. He is living at home with mom and dad again, looking for a new relationship. I discovered that he is fun to hang out with and nice, BUUUTTTT way too young for me! I have been there, done that, there was 7 years difference between my last boyfriend and me and though he seemed mature enough to settle down at the time, he was not. I am not about to put myself in that position again.
Then I met the quiet and intriguing intellectual. He is witty in an ‘off’ kind of way, but a godly man and encouraging. Problem is, I can’t read him, there is so much wrapping on this one I can’t get to who the real guy is to see if there is anything solid I really like that is worth pursuing.
So then I met the always fun, center of attention, wants to take me out, full of life, let me spoil you guy. It would be great to go out a few times and have him treat me like a princess. Then what comes next? I have learned that people that go out of their way to be the center of attention will always need to be in the spotlight, and that is just way to much effort to put that much energy into one man.
The friend, we all have that one guy friend right? He is the one guy that is there to encourage you and talk to you no matter what. He helps you understand things from a man’s perspective and everything is great. Everything about this guy is great, hard worker, honest, caring, most of all he loves the Lord and he is even good looking which is a plus! Then he asks you on a date. A date is great right? Is it? I mean I have this great friend and all, so what happens if we move to that next level and it does not work out? Do I lose my friend too?
Then, when you least expect it, HE walks in to your life and wham! Talk, dark and handsome! He has the most incredible blue eyes and the strongest arms! He is sweet, funny, caring and interested! Woo-hoo he asked me on a date! We spent all day talking and laughing together, and when we danced, he held me tight and it felt like there was no one else in the world! He is definitely someone I want to get to know better. He has ‘that’ quality certain guys have when you do not know him but you want to.
Then wham! He drops a bomb! He has never found himself in this position before and he did not expect to meet me. However, he is seeing someone else and it would not be right. Then your head starts reeling with questions: did he forget three days ago when he started talking to me? When he danced with me and softly kissed my cheek? How did I find myself right back in the same situation that I just got out of? Am I the kind of girl that guys want to be with but never end up with? What is wrong with me?
On the other hand, he was honest about it and did not let things go to far before he realized the mess he was about to get us all in. At least he was truthful right? Not like the last guy who chased every woman in sight and never cared that he was in a relationship! The one encouraging thing that I walked away from him with was this; he did find value in me enough to be honest. He has my number and if it is in God’s plan then he will call when the time is right and he is not seeing anyone else. I can respect that a lot.
So for the time, I will remain single and still. Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." That is a promise I can find rest in. I can hold on to the hope that God will not let me get involved in something that is not right for me. So until the time is right, I will keep window-shopping for that elusive chocolate that is just right for me!
I have recently found myself single again after being in a long-term relationship. While I am not out looking to meet anyone, nor am I ready to get back into a relationship again, it certainly does not hurt to window shop the chocolate to see what is new. This is what I have discovered and why I am still shopping.
My first option is the young, newly divorced, father of one. He is living at home with mom and dad again, looking for a new relationship. I discovered that he is fun to hang out with and nice, BUUUTTTT way too young for me! I have been there, done that, there was 7 years difference between my last boyfriend and me and though he seemed mature enough to settle down at the time, he was not. I am not about to put myself in that position again.
Then I met the quiet and intriguing intellectual. He is witty in an ‘off’ kind of way, but a godly man and encouraging. Problem is, I can’t read him, there is so much wrapping on this one I can’t get to who the real guy is to see if there is anything solid I really like that is worth pursuing.
So then I met the always fun, center of attention, wants to take me out, full of life, let me spoil you guy. It would be great to go out a few times and have him treat me like a princess. Then what comes next? I have learned that people that go out of their way to be the center of attention will always need to be in the spotlight, and that is just way to much effort to put that much energy into one man.
The friend, we all have that one guy friend right? He is the one guy that is there to encourage you and talk to you no matter what. He helps you understand things from a man’s perspective and everything is great. Everything about this guy is great, hard worker, honest, caring, most of all he loves the Lord and he is even good looking which is a plus! Then he asks you on a date. A date is great right? Is it? I mean I have this great friend and all, so what happens if we move to that next level and it does not work out? Do I lose my friend too?
Then, when you least expect it, HE walks in to your life and wham! Talk, dark and handsome! He has the most incredible blue eyes and the strongest arms! He is sweet, funny, caring and interested! Woo-hoo he asked me on a date! We spent all day talking and laughing together, and when we danced, he held me tight and it felt like there was no one else in the world! He is definitely someone I want to get to know better. He has ‘that’ quality certain guys have when you do not know him but you want to.
Then wham! He drops a bomb! He has never found himself in this position before and he did not expect to meet me. However, he is seeing someone else and it would not be right. Then your head starts reeling with questions: did he forget three days ago when he started talking to me? When he danced with me and softly kissed my cheek? How did I find myself right back in the same situation that I just got out of? Am I the kind of girl that guys want to be with but never end up with? What is wrong with me?
On the other hand, he was honest about it and did not let things go to far before he realized the mess he was about to get us all in. At least he was truthful right? Not like the last guy who chased every woman in sight and never cared that he was in a relationship! The one encouraging thing that I walked away from him with was this; he did find value in me enough to be honest. He has my number and if it is in God’s plan then he will call when the time is right and he is not seeing anyone else. I can respect that a lot.
So for the time, I will remain single and still. Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." That is a promise I can find rest in. I can hold on to the hope that God will not let me get involved in something that is not right for me. So until the time is right, I will keep window-shopping for that elusive chocolate that is just right for me!
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